Call me "attention-seeker..." I AM.

NEGATIVE COMMENTS here, BAD FEEDBACKS there. RUMORS all around me. I hear them and I know that they're talking about me and they're pulling me down. I hate hearing 'em. It's because I know thy're not true but I still get hurt because I'm the one involved. I know that what you're gonna say is that "AYY, NAIGO RA NA. GUILTY MAN GUD. MAO NA." But the truth is, I AM NOT.

But maybe I should not hate it. I mean, who would hate the feeling of being talked about? Maybe I should be proud of it. Many people have heard about me. A rebellious, feeler, honor-student wannabe.  Ugh. whatever.

Many teachers tell me "Hey, what's happening? Your class performance is getting lower ( wait am I right? Is getting lower the right term? oh, never mind. I have the freedom to be corrected.). Maybe you're 'TOO iNLOVE' that's why you are getting lazier"

I always get mad when I hear those lines but I just hide them between my laughs and lies because I know that showing my anger will just bring me to nothing 'cause I can't talk back to teachers.  Do you want to know the reason why  I've changed? Here it is, read on to unlock this effing useless mystery.

Wait. Before I proceed, I'll tell you who I WAS. I'm a good student, in fact I have good grades, I'm an honor student, and I ALWAYS, ALWAYS follow rules. But, I've just been curious on how it feels to be a lawbreaker. So that's it. I started being lazy but at least my grades are not flunking. :] Following the dos and donts are soooooooo boooooring. I also want to prove that even though I'm lazy, I still can be one of the 'smart kuno' at school. But my plan went wrong. 

I know how to manage my time. I just don't want to because doing wrong is fun. I know that was an unacceptable reason but that's the truth. And if love is really the reason why I'm like this, then maybe from my freshman year, I've already been distracted right? I've been crushin' and blushin' and lovin' since my freshman year. I'm just committed right now. So what's the difference? And being in a relationship doesn't change a thing. NORMAL. Adik. I just want to be lazy 'cause it's fun. I know it's wrong, but wrong is MORE FUN!

Thank you for talking about me, now I'm so BROKEN, CRUSHED, DESTROYED and my reputation is SOILED. But what does it mean to you, right? I'm just an ordinary student whose name is unknown and you are BIG people who needs to be respected.

Oh, wonder why I wrote and showed this in public? I can't keep it all in my head and I can't talk back to elders, so I'll just let it out in my blog. So that you will know what it feels like to be talked about especially in the things that are SOOO WRONG. Keep talking about me, I'll be famous.


(haha! I've erased the private thingies in here, so if you don't get my point, then goodluck.:] )